There are days when I realize that I feel I’m not doing things fast enough. Older people tell me to calm down, relax, and enjoy life while I can, because I’m young, I have lots of time. Well I think the opposite is true. I need to do all I can while I’m young, because eventually I’ll be older, and telling people what they told me.
I’m never afraid to die. What I am afraid of is regretting on my death bed that I didn’t actually live. I mean, I have lots that I’m doing right now. I’m in the military. I’ve experienced more then most people twice my age might have experienced. I have learned to enjoy the extra minutes of free time. I enjoy smaller things now.
But I still want to achieve the goals of so many. I don’t want to be on my death bed and talk about the things I wanted to do, but never did because I was to lazy, to broke, or never had the time.
I think a big thing about life is we all believe we need to do a lot of things to be satisfied. I think this is all relative to the times. Back in the old days, doing a lot, and completing your life dreams might include having a successful farm, taking over the family business, or making one trip to a city you always dreamed of seeing. This might be enough to say you have completed your life, and your ready to die. You are complete.
Today, the standard of living is higher. We need to do much more to achieve our life goals because so many more options are out there. There is so much to do, but it all requires money, time, and desire. Sometimes your desire doesn’t match the money or time needed. In the end, you’ll be on your death bed wishing that you were able to make that trip around the world. But you couldn’t because you didn’t have the money, or time. Or your desire was enough to dream, but not enough to make spending that much money or time – or doing what was needed to acquire them- worth while.
I think we as people don’t see what we already have. I know I don’t. Every day I wish I could be rich and just do what ever I wanted. I wish I didn’t have to worry about money, about paying the bills. I wish that I could travel the world, own big trucks, and be the alpha man with all the women. I could, but I need the desire to make it worth while to me. Its a dream, do I have the desire to achieve this dream? I’m still trying to figure that out. Maybe I’ll just settle for something less.
The problem though is that we never will be able to look at what we have and be happy. What we have is the norm. Our species wants us to progress and do more. Our minds yearn for new experiences.
This isn’t necessarily a bad thing. This allows our species to improve as a species. We develop our society to be better. But as we improve it, we improve what we as individuals can do. Soon we will have done more things that we wanted to do, and soon it becomes the norm. But this will mean that we will still be in the same boat. We will still wish we could do more.
So how do we live our lives without feeling like we are moving to slow and not going to get all we want to get done in the amount of time we have?
I really couldn’t tell you. I think even if you could do everything you wanted, you would yearn to do more afterwards. It is human instinct. The best thing for anybody to do is just to realize that the feeling will probably never go away, and to just do the best you can. Continually try to improve.
I think the best thing that a person will ever want to feel at the end of their life is that they felt they gave 100% to doing the best they could at getting everything done. You will always have that regret that you didn’t get something done. But you can be at least happy that your life was yours, that you chose the paths you took your life.
If I seriously didn’t try my best to make the best of my life, I will know it in the end. On my death bed I will wish that I wanted to do better, but I didn’t cause I was to lazy to even try. I do not want to feel that way.
I want to feel that yes, maybe some things I could not complete, it is impossible to complete everything. But I at least know I gave 100% to make my life the best I could, that I took control of it, and the road I took was my choice.
That is the best anybody can do. I don’t think any person will ever get everything done. Human instinct will just put in another thing to dream about once one dream is fulfilled.